Friday, February 10, 2006 Y 11:17 PM
have been thinking hard this few days, should i have another blog just for my personal thoughts???? sometimes i do not wish to be written on this blog as it's privacy to me... just to me....lately things have been happen on me till i can't cope, i'm sick of all this nonsense stuff, i'm sick of rumours all this craps, i'm sick of letting people controlling me or ordering me... just one simple sentence...I'M SIMPLY HATE IT!!!!!!!!have been working so hard just to archieve my goal yet there's always someone behind me stabbing me... ain't this type of idiot feel annoying and bored by doing all this stupid tiny movements.. you're just wasting your time on this stupid movements that you're doing, first of all i'm not free to entertain you as i've plenty of works to be done, secondly no matter what you say or do i'll not give up i'll fight till the end with you!!!the abovementioned things just happen to me recently.. and i get to know from my senior about this issue that someone in the company told my management that i'm not happy with my current dept and wish to be transfer to others dept! i was shocked when i heard it even my boss approached me and ask me?all i can comments are i never even feel unhappy staying in this dept, i simply love this team, we've the team spirit, we fight together as a team, we survive as a team too.. i'll never give up on my team.. all i say to the person is that "you can eat anything you want but words can't spit out anyway you want!" you'll make a person lose the ricebowl just becoz of your stupid rumours..have been trying hard to tell darl but whenever he told me his life things with his friends, my heart dun wish to say out as i do not wish to bring this to burden or make him stress over my things.. i can handle it by my own.. heard darl say something to me is that fri i can't go out with him if not i'll get sick just like the previous situation, sat i'm allow to go out with him.. feel sad when i heard this from him, although i heard him telling me last week but i'juz thought that he's joking with me...all i can say is that i damn unlucky for this week, a week not yet past yet i have misfortunate things befall on me!! why must it always be me??? why not others???getting to feel like i'm a loser!!!! darl is out with his friends for movie marathon.. it must be very fun but.....................................................................................................forget it.. from this moment on i just feel like to be alone thinking my own thoughts and decision..
